permanent solution to a temporary problem
This morning he killed himself. He sent a text to his upstairs friend stating "call the sheriff" and then shot and killed himself in the bathtub. Text sent at 1 AM. Seen and read at 7 AM.
Sigh, such a waste of a life. Such a permanent solution to what must have been a temporary problem. To end your life while over 1/2 of your time here was still to come.
The despair over a relationship ruined by inattention, a job destroyed by attrition, a world view steeped in fatalism. A family left with "would'a could'a should'a's galore. All issues that could have been resolved if not perfectly; at least resolved in a manner that would have breathed life rather than death.
I find myself hurting most for those remaining behind. the neighbor who carries the grief "if only I had responded to his text" "if only I had visited more often". The ex-wife "if only I had found the good in him, seen the worth in him, been willing to work harder at the relationship"... The friends, the family, the co-workers.... All filled with "what ifs" that will beleaguer their thoughts for months to come.
Sigh, such a waste of a life. Such a permanent solution to what must have been a temporary problem. To end your life while over 1/2 of your time here was still to come.
The despair over a relationship ruined by inattention, a job destroyed by attrition, a world view steeped in fatalism. A family left with "would'a could'a should'a's galore. All issues that could have been resolved if not perfectly; at least resolved in a manner that would have breathed life rather than death.
I find myself hurting most for those remaining behind. the neighbor who carries the grief "if only I had responded to his text" "if only I had visited more often". The ex-wife "if only I had found the good in him, seen the worth in him, been willing to work harder at the relationship"... The friends, the family, the co-workers.... All filled with "what ifs" that will beleaguer their thoughts for months to come.
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